So this shit is totally dead, and noone reads im guessing
which is good.

Havent really been bothered for anything this week
just been watching movies and msning
alots been occupying my mind.
"My emotions revolve around the weather" - Katherine.
Definitely true, when it rains .. omfg yock
lol i feel shit. if its sunny and windy, i love it :)

Oh i love costume parties.
no joke, omg. like yaknow
i love dressing up, for Mae's i was a maid :)
only costed me $20. lol made it from cheap thangs.
Lol "smart" maid cos they kept calling me a slut --"
fml. aha not even
Next is christmas party :)
"santa's little helper" yayayayay.


cannot wait till holidays :)
going out and spending money.
yesssssssssssssssssss*

. japjap . 612 says:

well shariza, i hope a nice BOY comes and sweeps you off yo' feeet

cos you totes deserve it :)

Aww thanks Yo'fat.

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Anyways i think i sort of understand the pattern of the events that happened this year

why i was so determined with my ex. Why i held on?

Can only come in the form of 2 words .. First Love.

♫ Such a shame, we ended up this way .. deciding that we're better off with others. And if She, gives you something i can't then I'm okay with that because at the end of the day .. all i got to say is boy your my heart, You can be with her f'life.. that dont change the fact that im your first love. "

Nothing beats it until you actually feel the real deal .

This first love is who you compare every other guy too

something you felt strongly for .. for the first time and didnt want to let go

i get it. i understand. it didnt make me stupid ..

it just blinded me from the truth.

But now? Its gone already .. long gone

pops up from time to time on my shitty days but apart from that ..

i'm all good. Not seeing him made things so much easier to move on ..

its the key ingredient that i needed.

Im all better now. Never been happier. :) Drama free..

making life boring ahhaa yock.

Now im a fucking 5th wheel. ahha fuck you bitches.

Migs & Wnona, Kayd & Clayd.

S'only me & Shasha, against the world. ahahahahaha

x

I totally like this photo. :) I don't believe in the word forever. Stopped believing in it years ago --"

--

My so called friend, hasn't spoken one word to me since we last talked.

Aparently.. 'giving me space' still but I've had so much time to think about this crap

even before he gave me space.

Him apparently "not giving up trying to find out whats wrong with me"

is bullshit. nawwmean? because he hasn't exactly tried.

Him not asking me .. just shows me that what he says .. doesn't really mean anything ..

all the .. ' no i can't not worry because you my friend' crap.

Watever bro.

Oh yeah, and that "other thing"

that was doing my head in for pretty much a week ..

ITS GONE :) don''t care anymore. Happy whoo yahh whoo yah.

x

I really think this family thing is bigger than i expected. I think my aunty hates me for something i didnt do. Everytime i ask to visit my cousin, she has to ask her mum and then her mum always says no. wtf, think she hates me :\

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AHAAHHAHA i was talking to Wnona on msn

and i described these images as bad as catching your parents having sex.

How that image will never be erased from your mind?

yeah thats how i feel.

My Love Horoscope for the day.

You are going through another of your infamous periods of withdrawal, Pisces, and this may lend for some progress in the romance department. You do enjoy the social limelight, but today even when you are with others you may feel separate and alone. Seeing other couples may provide you with twinges of nostalgia, or senses of missing someone with a foreign connection. Sadness and disappointments are part of life, but you may be experiencing this with greater depth in this period. You may want to consider looking objectively at this relationship. This is a situation where it is not too late to change anything. Progress is possible, if you leave things in the past and make a fresh start today, you will find that someone else is just as willing to take your lead.

That part in red, fuck

I do hate couples. Surrounded by them lmfao

i tell them i hate them, ive told nona countless times how much i hate her & migs.
She knows it. & soon with Kris. omg.

The party was a good escape from reality

really, it was.

but now? Its fucking killing me

replaying over & over & over

and it wont stop.

its fucked.

Drink up again soon, ben10 says.

They shouldve let out all the drinks last night --''

i tk n, i rly rgt y.

i shdv lnt m lsn fucking 2 yrs ag

b i dnt. i wnt f agn ds yr nd lk wt fkng hpnd ds tm!

lk ll thr tms. sm ndng. m wndn p gtn hrt.

yafcbialy

Today.

Found something i wasnt meant to see

it got me all fucked up

havent cried in so long, but today ..

failed.

i was meant to have fun, drink as much as i could

and dance my life out tonight ..

i danced my life out but only had 2 drinks, so nothing happened.

this fucked me up.

seriously omg.

can't explain exactly what im feeling and whats going thru my mind :(

what i saw, i cannot get it out of my mind

fucking going to stay there for the rest of my life.

fuck.

yafcbialy.

hpfli nn rds ths nimr.

wl, v gt ds fln dt i ct xctli xpln.

8s bn psn m f f d ps fw dys nao

8 ll std wn d wthr std fking up

8s mkn m fl lk st br. n jk, idn wt t d.

i fl fkn lnli br, i nw yr tkn t otr gls

& dts tts nml. i nw. 8s hd t sy dt drs lws gg t b smtn dr f y,

wch i dny bcs i dn w 8 t b tru.

bt v fucking lst ne f m hps gd frnds cs h fnd a grl.

i mn, drng d hlds.. h cld m rrdy. now? hsn spkn t m n wks.

mother fucker, i know. wst f tm.

smtms i wnt t b ntstd n lv agn? lk i ms d fln f 8

b y.. Y FKD 8 UP F M. swr t gd.

8s lk i dn blv n 8 nym. i cn std d fct dt ppl r sooooooooooooo hP w/ w vr dyr w/.

& i wsn vn cls. fucking hell. i spn m tm n y wn i cdv hd d lv f m lf rt nw.

nw 8s fkd. n lngr srs nym.. js fk rnd w/ w vr.

i ht y bt i dn?

wl dn mtr n. wdeta --"

)(*^&%$%&^(^)(&

hwhb ♥

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

LIFE IS GOOD

WATCHED MICHAEL JACKSON :)

i feel so good, my mother trusts me so much more

i feel so trusted. ahahahha

Thursday - I came home at 9pm

Friday - I came home at 9pm

Saturday - I came home at 12am

Tuesday - I came home at 9pm again

LMFAOO WHOOOHOO (H)

HWHB! Ssl, 8s bn s lg y?

ct blv tt i stl rmb 8 br.

hp y h fn a? dn thk y vn rmb 8

x

"Sweat pants, hair tied, chillin' with no make up on. Thats when your the prettiest, i hope that you don't take it wrong."

Life is greaaat. It doesn't get any better than this.

Smooth sailin' and i love life.

Yeah. Whooooooo

WNONA's coming back on Friday.

I miss her like fuck omg. ahha

x

WHAT THE FUCK.

Get a life.

Yeah ? yeah.

Saw a cute guy today awww.

He had nice arms, light yellow singlet with blue skinnies..

A Grey beenie and aviators.

HE WAS HOT. omg omg.

100th Post

Yeaaah hundreth post today :D

Filo Fiesta

Fuck Filo Fest, lol no one goes. It's boring and its like not fun anymore. Last year was saved by me & Carla rapping over some fucking mango ice cream we bought for $4. That went on pretty much the whole night. ahhaha But yeah, Tb central broo. I'd go for the food :D

So instead of ff, I went to watch Final Destination 3D with Krisha. lol Got free upgraded food from macdo :) and free 3D glasses. lmfao which specifically say "Do not use these glasses as sun glasses" ahha nice. Yeah 'Bobby Campos' is pretty cute. Reminds me of Seth Cohen but like .. not good enough for my list. lol Aj Rafael - he was just a phase.

School tomorrow, only "yr 12's" now. Yuck, im old. ahha

Had a dream about some guy named Adem ;) it was pretty good hah perfect boyfriend height too. lol and his dad was Rufus from GG and he was inlove with my mum. hahaha Adem's sister was Donna from neighbours and yeah. There was a secret society in my garage. ahahhaahhaa How hectic do my dreams sound? anyways

Follow me on tumblr, its more fun lol

s-reezuuuh.tumblr.com

btw, good luck yr 12's. HSC coming soon.

(MMY)

Adiós

SMY

1 more blog to go.

So today i was bored shitless, again. aha SCHOOL

YES. I Miss EVERYONE FUCK.

First offf, this morning.. i had the biggest fight with a friend.

Never thought it'd get so big, over fucking nothing.

We argued from 12am and finished at 230am. It was pointless

but made complicated. i do not understand how it got there

I copied the convo & pasted in a document so i could print it for my diary

and it was 23 pages long. what the fuck aye?

I thought we'd never talk again. Cos last time we had a fight like that we blocked eachother for a month or so and still over my birthday. so yeah sucked.

I watched HSM3. And .. i cried. Swear theres something wrong with me,

i cry over the most weirdest movies! ahhaaa

Then Rush Hour 3. :)

Then Benchwarmers. lmfao at the stupid guy, my favourite ! <3

yeah I DID REVERSE PARKING! i'm getting it. whoo

excited. ahhahahah yeah hopefully i get my P's in March.

yayyyyyyuh. And thats it, my day. Proud of me? :D

Happy Birthday Ichad, Love You Forever and Ever. ( For tomorrow)

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Things left unsaid.

Girl: Your new girlfriend is pretty. (I bet she stole your heart)
Boy: Yeah, she is. (But you’re still the most beautiful girl I know)
Girl: I heard she’s funny and amazing. (All the stuff I wasn’t)
Boy: She sure is. (But she’s nothing compared to you)
Girl: I bet you know everything about her by now. (Like how you knew just about everything about me)
Boy: Only the stuff that counts. (I can’t even remember the stuff she tells me when I think of you)
Girl: Well, I hope you guys last. (Because we never did)
Boy: I hope we do too. (Whatever happened to me & you?)
Girl: Well I got to go. (Before I start to cry)
Boy: Yeah me too. (I hope you don’t cry)
Girl: Bye. (I still love you)
Boy: Later. (I never stopped)

Omg, this is gna make me cry. mmy! :(

(2 more posts to go)

Hey guyyyyys?

Howsegoin ? :) weeeeellll ...

Blogspot is boring. ahahah deadset. So .. i've kind of moved to tumblr ..

s-reezuuuh.tumblr.com

it's totally easier and more fun. ahahha this gets bored & all that.

noone reads it. ahhaha but anyways..

after i post my 100th blog for this (which is like 3 more posts), i'll move to tumblr more and this will be updated monthly i guessss...

tumblr's heaps better :D

x

8s s hd, srsly. m htry gts rdd w yr fb lnk.
i cnnt g a dy wut lkn a yr pg.
i cnt hlp 8. m strtn t ms y mr ech dy cs m hls gt mr sht b d mnt.
its fucking hell i tell you.
cnt y vn s hlo? 8s dn m hd n.
x

"It’s like,

i dont want to sleep because

when i wake up, i’m thinking of you

and it hurts way more.

You wake up thinking things might’ve
at least gotten better ..

take a minute to think

and realise that they havent."

" Even though he hurt you over and over.
It's still impossible to find someone who makes you as happy as he did. "

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

17 Again

I can't sleep again. I just totally cried my eyes out to 17 Again.
How much of a pussy can i be bro. ahha i cant cry to 'The Notebook' but i cry to this crap. omg.

This Letter. Fuck.

"Scarlet,
Before you go through this, I want to remind you of September 7th, 1988. It was the first time that I saw you. You were reading Less Than Zero, and you were wearing a Guns 'n' Roses t-shirt. I'd never seen anything so perfect. I remember thinking that I had to have you or I'd die... then you whispered that you loved me at the homecoming dance, and I felt so peaceful... and safe... because I knew that no matter what happened, from that day on, nothing can ever be that bad... because I had you. And then I, uh... I grew up and I lost my way. And I blamed you for my failures. And I know that you think you have to do this today... but I don't want you to.
But I guess... if I love you, I should let you move on. "

Then he finished making the Hammock he never ended up finishing. And left a note saying ..
"I wish i could finish all the things that i started
- Mike"

Emilynn Villanueva

Punkeyes On the Rocks + City.

We went Via Airport line because its quicker. One the way, catching up about our lives. Finding out who her 'A' was and i totally knew it. LMAO telling her the happs with my life and vice versa.

We Ordered ..

Chicken & Mushroom Crepes
Chicken Tandori Pizza

2 Hot 'n' Troppo's.

Lmao, since she said she ate alot, i suggested another plate or something but yeah we stuck we that. We did not finish any of it. Then walking back to Circular Quay was a fucking mission bro omg. lmao trying to walk, while being really full and tensing your stomach muscles bkos your laughing? fuck my life, its hard.

Costed us 3.20$ each to get to Central from fucking CQ. Bs bro, yeah we got there & bought an umbrella. She wanted to tax it but like i'm such a good girl and get fucking paranoid. On the way to Market City, we walked passed this Guy in a Brown leather jacket & after walking past him.. we both mentioned him, cos he was pretty cute. lmao

Then Market City, we went into Glue. There were the cutests guys there. One wearing a purple/maroon looking shirt and the other white. I shotgunned the purple but emem's obsessed with him so yeah watvs. He was like "See you ;) " aw. lol

Tb's invading Galaxy world, yuck how ugly. Started craving mother but it was too expensive :( lol Saw Jerome with his girlf and Deanabitch with his girlf. Of which whom i havent ever seen them with :)

On the way back, we saw the Brown leather jacket guy again. And he was like "You'se look Familiar, didnt you'se walk passed here like an hour ago?" - so we stopped to talk to him ;) awwwww. ahahha Yeah some charity guy and stuffff. He was originally from Westside(btown) and moved up to the North. lmao he tried guessing our nash's.. he goes "Are you filipino?"

Em said "yes" and then i go "okay guess mine? " to fuck up what he thought ahahha

aw then he was like "You must be Half!" (whoo yeah whoo yeah ahah ) i love that compliment! :D

Slept on the train, embarrassing for Em, ahha hope i didnt snore :) and yeah

thats it. Got em her Colour Concentration crap for her hair and it ended up being more expensive for her ! ahhaha.

I Loveee Emilynn F'lifeeee

x

Insomnia?

Yeah well, i can't sleep.
Ulyuh talked to me today, guess im not mad anymore
Just.. i dont know. i really dont.

How sad is it, got cancelled on 4 times in a row this week.
Monday - Baby Aurora
wnona couldnt go so we didnt go
Tuesday - Beach
The hectic rain from the night before.
Wednesday - no comment.
Thursday Parra
Serena got sick from fishing, but is making it up to me :)

yeaaaah. Shit holidays --"

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Slept at 330am.
FAIL
x

Day 4

# 1098323575 hangout with Kristianne.

Serena + Imeldz @ Parra
Called Kris at 10.30am & woke her up again, i wanted to get out again so we decided to have a late lunch at livo. We ate at Johnny's, i have not been there since year 9. It's been so long. We had one of them catch up talks and yeah it was pretty cool. Clayton came up out of nowhere, tried to surprise Kris but my face fucked it up and gave it away. We went 'op shopping' and i bought a bag for $6. LMFAO we went into the smith family but beforehand.. heaps of fob guys walked out & watched us as we walked down.. embarrassing .. so we didnt walk in until they went back & we ran back in ahahah.

Webcammed with Babytjayrabbs tonight. ahhahaha FAGGOT.
he showed me his whole life bro ahhaha no joke.



PUNKEYKS WITH EMILYNNN TMR (L)
x

ULYUH.

Hang out with Edbie at Parra.

KAFREEEEEEEEEENS
lmfao, first idea was to dye her hair
so we walked all the way to coles, on the way dnming & updating i guess
cos i havent talked to her in a while.
then her brand wasnt there, so we walked back
and watched "My Sassy Girl"
then did make up. LMFAO
First we did the 'Smokey Eye' which turned out
really really goood. Then we tried 'the wicked witch'
which looked like this ..


FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIL.
it turned out like this .. (Left to right: Kafren, Shariza)


LMAO then we did smokey eye again and took fotos :D

Love kafren heaaaaps.
x

lmfaoooooooooooooooooooooooo

These totally made my night.

did these for maybe 2 hours? ahahahah nice.

im bored & have no life :( thats why !

Krishariza

Shariza Melson

Kafren Melson

Kafren Nayfen

Melson Edward Cullen

HAHAH sucked cos it was hard finding

a close up foto, that was straight on and

mouth closed of people. ahha ==''

x

Wnona's leaving tmr. :(

Have a safe trip baby!

And in some way,

I think I recognize that I will never be fully over you,

and that part of me will always love you.

But most of me understands that this doesn’t work,

and I need to move on to be happy.

- Eletheowl

Goodbye Gossip Girl

Aw, i had another marathon for Gossip Girl and like it made me cry :(
When Blair asked Chuck to tell her how he really feels or if it was just a game to him
and then Chuck says its a game. And as Blair runs off crying, Serena asks why he did that.. he said It was because he loved her and he couldn't make her happy.
Then the time at the prom where he took out Nelly's votes and he voted for her 150 times. How he ruined the limo, crosage (however you spell it) and dress just because he could get a better one for her. He just wanted to make her prom night perfect. Fuck my life :(

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i swr, y r a bd hbt f m. c, i nw al ds bt y d i stl ms y? srsly.
evn tho i nw dt y ddt trt m rt,
evn tho i nw y nvr dd lv m d wy i lvd y,
evn tho i gv y ll i hd,
evn tho i ws tkn f gntd,
evn tho i gt ht vr n vr n vr n vr agn,
evn tho i nw ll dt, evn nw, dr r mms wr i ms y.
i dn nw y i d @ tms.
c, evn tho ll dt .. i stl thk 'wt f?'
wt wd hpn f w wrkd?
lk nw, m wndrn wt yr dn nw. w y tk t. f m stl n y md.
i srsly ct wt fr d nx ne t cm, wn i cn frgt y n fly lt y go.
wt m, thrs brly nthn dr bt drs stl smthn & dts d prt dt i gs m nvr gna lt go.
f fb hd prfl vws, yrs wd b hgh & prly ll fm m.
wl y.
Good Luck guys, tryna read it.

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Aimees out of the country and i already miss her. faaaaaaaah

and Wnona's leaving wednesday. Awwwww

i already miss both of you'se and wnona hasnt even left --"

aha

x

I Invented Sex

"I've always followed my heart instead of my head. I’ve always jumped, always took that leap of faith into the unknown, having no idea of what the outcome of my actions would be. But now, now it’s so very clear. I need to stop following my heart. I just need to stop, before I do anything at all. I need to stop and think about it, about what I am about to do. I need to think about whether it is right or it is wrong. Because when you follow your heart, you lose track of what’s right and what’s wrong and it tears you apart."
- Eletheowl


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I want my Chuck :(



Gossip Girl - Season 3

Aw i miss errone.

I miss my frands.
and how we didnt spend alot of money each day
Stupid lunches in the playground
talking about the most randomest subjects ever

I miss my family friends, i miss the parties
and how we would laugh the nights away
how we used to all be one
whenever New Years or Christmas came.. it would be the best night we've ever had
i hate how this argument has practically stole moments like that from us
how it has thrown friendships away between people
how silly this all is. I miss everyone so badly :(
I miss ate clarisse cause i dont see her everyday now --"

I miss bgc. I miss our laughs
and how we'd always laugh at nothing
like in 50 first dates "Aquariums make me .. supa horny" haha :L
come up with stupid little games like doing "ABC" with a scrunched up foil.
i miss when bgc wasnt divided in groups.

Omg i miss Emem,
talk to me ASAP cos i havent talked to you in ages kay?
KAAAAAAAAAAAY. lmao
how special are you :p your own individual shoutout ;)

I pretty much miss everyone i've felt like i've lost
x

BEACH

FKN WEATHER, Jsf called me in the middle of cooking our food and told me that Gondi was sunny. FML FML FML
I think mother natures angry at us cos we didnt put our eggs out :(

We went to KOREAN BBQ place at Parra. (whoo, go Jarryd Hayne! )
and yeah, we stunk like smoke ! ahhaa
I Love You Girls Foreverrr, sersly! :)




And Mae. Fuck my life.. best time with her tryna be all "Plastic"
"omg mae, i totally want this swimsuit because it compliments all my features. I want you to get it too cos youd look totally hot. seriously. your so hot right now. we need to be matching matching" looooooooooooooool


FUCKING BGC. I love you'se but omg.
Whenever you'd walk passed a guy or see a cute lookin guy .. you'd call out my name, spell it, scream it. HAHHA get them to notice.
"hey SHARIZA we're going now. SHARIZA ! SHARIZA! S-H-A-R-I-Z-A! shariza, c'mon!"
embarrassment ahahah funny though & that guy from gp.
you guys are dick'eds. he full knew it omg, ahaha and you went back in to "get his number/msn/name" ahha losers. but he left, ahha good thing he did.

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y i thk yr ngri @ m. Sri sri k ?
dn nw f yl gt 8, bt y.
sri y, ddn mn 2. js tht y wdn gt 8.
ttys? mb. k sy!

x

GONDI = CANCELLED

FUCK MY LIFE. i was so ready for tmr
i was full saying all day "So today was 20 degrees and tmr will be 21, shit how hot is it gna be"
just yaknow, hoping for hectic weather yeah ? and then it got cancelled !

FUCK EGGS!

Lmfao! yeah and today, Andy raided my wall.
Looked like "Lovers" ahhaha

So THAT ^ pretty much explains our spammed walls.
it was fun for the 55 minutes that we lasted.
We werent allowed to cmnt other boys/girls
and we had to spam eachothers walls. ahahha
which did happen, we ran outta fucked up corny things to say..
so i manipulated it so that i became a fight
then soon a break up! :) ahhahaha
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Jo came all the way to livo today :)
well we had a catch up session last night but then i went cos i had an exam, he called after the exam and yuuh came here at 2. We hung out pretty much the whole day with Wnona.
WNONA, im sorry we teased okay? sorry.
I seriously cannot keep a straight face unless it's to ganga. LOL

PARRA TMR GIRLS!
x

Krz cm ovr m hows = "Kris came over my house"
Hectic short cuts thats doing peoples heads in. HAHAHA

I love hanging with her, theyre always last minute
and random :) lol well cbf typing, got into the shortcut writing
bt yeaaaah.

S.Reezuuh ft. Kayd

FUCK FUCK FUCK LMAO. this made my night.

"You know why they call me 0014?
Because im twice as good as 007! "

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Year 12's officially finished.
Some are glad that schools over and some are going to miss it terribly. Personally, if i were there (which i would be next year) i would miss school a hell of a lot.
I'd miss the escape from home, the friendships that are so easily formed just by being in the same class, 'lunch & recess', have all the different cliques at school, having those bludgy days where events happen at school. Theres so much more that i would miss.

I dont get others people's happiness in wanting to leave school so much, whats so bad about it? All the assignments, all the homework ? CUZ, all that hasn't finished.. you've still got tafe or uni or whatver, which would be so much more harder than High School.

Well for me, it's too late to keep making the most of year 11 cos we're already finished.

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Eletheowl, You fucking make my day.
Theres just so much i can relate to.
"You find people, and then you lose them. Nothing lasts forever, contrary to popular belief. And it’s those goodbyes, the ones you’d never thought you had to say; it’s those that hurt the most."

Kb

Baby, Aurora Faith Alejandro

She's so small, i could fucking fit her in my bag & take her home.

ahah you dont understand my obsession with babies.

At church i barely pay attention when theres a baby around

cos i try to get their attention. ahha

i love babies that have creases in their arms & legs.

ahha and if one walks passed, i stare. ahha

People who hang with me would know :)

Saw Matthew Abarquez today too.

Havent seen this boy in forever. I taught him how to give the best hugs out.

x

Last week of school.

I want you to be my girl - Johnta Austin
"Baby you a 10, let me be your gir', let me be your friend
Darling here's my hand, darling here's my heart"
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I went to Miranda today. aw yay, home of my bestfriend --"
fml. lol i couldnt be bothered downloading eps 22-25 of GG season 2, so i just watched ep 1 of GG season 3. FUCK, its goood. aha
BEST LINE THROUGHOUT THE EPISODE
"I'm not Chuck Bass without you"
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This emotional crap has NOT gone down :( fml
it's doing my head in sooo bad, i hate it.

x

GOOD SHIT

OMGOMG.
This song is my type of shit bro, ahhahaha
depressssing but heaps good.

- wtf is with these blogs, all seem depressing guys
lol should be over this by the end of the weeekend :)

It's Not Just You - Nasri

Darling, I know your heart seen better times
I know our songs have better rhymes, before today
Darling, I guess I made the wrong mistakes
I understand if you need your space
Please take your time

[Hook]
Before you go away,
So far away
You need to realize

[Chorus:]
Baby it's not just you,
You know it hurts me too
Watching you leave with tears on your sleeve
Notice that mine are not exactly dry
Baby it's not just you,
That's hurting, it's me too

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So tonight, me & Karenren got bored
and we got onto the topic of boys.
We made our own lists of what our perfect boy is going to be like.
This guy, i reckon, is non-existent
but someone will come ever so close :)
This is too specific bro, ahaha shit. lol

Appearance Wise
- Hecticest Jawline (Major Weakness)
- Sexy ;)
- Good Dress Sense
Forgot one that was on karen's list.
- Someone who has a smile that makes me melt every time
Personality Wise
- Outgoing / Confident
-Patient
- Sense of Humour
- Loyalty
- Knows me inside and out
- Keeps promises
- Doesn't run away from problems
- Doesn't lie
- Isn't a 'playa playa'
- Isn't cliche and is spontaneous
- Doesn't abuse the words 'I love you'
- Can either sing or dance (either is sexy)
- A guy that will no matter what, listen to all my complaints and bitching.
- A guy who understands how my mind words. Knows that i can't help it, so tries to deal with it the right way.
- Someone i can turn to without him judging me
- SOMEONE I WILL NOT ARGUE WITH 24/7. that seems soo impossible, but it isnt. I know a couple that don't fight at all

Longing for a cry.

I really badly want to watch this movie :(



But everytime i try to download it, it says its going to take like 1-2 days to download. Stupid dumbfuck internet. ahha I feel like crying you fuck.
ahhaa soo im gna look around & see who has it :)

Today was average. Went shopping today at DFO after going to Olympic Pools. I know what im wearing to Gondi on friday :) I cannot wait, seriously! Might go to Mounty tmr to watch GDT plaay bball at kb ;) whoo, sexys. lol hope they win bro, i havent seen them in forever

QUOTE OF THE DAY. Its so sad bro.
"I'm scared to move on because I’m worried that the second I’m happy with someone else, you’ll pop up and ruin it. Ruin it by telling me that you want me, and that you’re sorry, and that you like me “kinda a lot,” and that you miss me “kinda a lot.” I’m worried that I’ll get so confused because I’ll be so happy with him, but of course I’ll still want you, and that will make me start crying all the time, end up losing the best relationship I ever had, just to have you get bored again and move onto some trashy girl. The worst part about all of this? I can see you doing it, because you want me hooked, you want me as an option, even if it is an option you’ll never take. "

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btw, fuck SOR & Chemistry :(

EELS VS. DOGGIES

I HAVE NEVER EVER LIKED SOO MANY STATUS' IN MY LIFE!
AHAHAHHA :L
but fuck my life, good game :)
lol Hayne's so sexy ! lol Found a new love. ahah
He made me jump on my chairs :)
So adds to my list ..
Adam Brody, Aj Rafael and Jarryd Hayne. whoo


AND OMG, I LOVE FUI FUI MOI MOI!
ahah his the best, ahah his cute.
Just charges with like 10 guys holding onto him still
ahah yeaah man, aha good night.


& the best addd ! ahaha



So yeah, today i gave all my resume's in.
Cross fingers i get a job bro..
im sooooo povo ! LOL
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im in love with 'eletheowl's quotes bro.
Totessss can relate. Lol.

Sheryl-rabbs & Ben10 rabbs. essssh adlayz.

Ben10's version of his obese person.
AHHAHAHAHAHAHA but my beats him.



My version of rabbs :) ahhaha shit hey, its hectic.
btw, the lines under the guys mouth are chin folds ! AHHAHAH
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Last Day Until Forever.

Whoah, this is like my 3rd blog today. shit

AHAH had fun with the lovely couple today, Raaajbhai and Mae. LMFAO we all share this one inparticular thing, our names will never be on that list for free boost. fml.

So we just stayed in the food court for a while and just talked about people. aha not bad or anything, just discussing. ahha Discussing what was new in our lives, which was pointless cos our lives were pretty much the same. aha They came to give my resume's in.
SCORE, i gave in my resumes to Vakko, Miss IT and Gloss. AHHA FAIL cos i only had 3 resumes. ahahah but yeah, then we went into Toys R Us. Fah, i havent been inside that shop in forever, since i was like Tb and shit. ahha
Took fotos of suraj's SMALL halloween party ;) and my Spooky Graveyard.
AHHAHAHAHA dw, upload fotos later when im bothered.
but yes, had fun. Going to meet up with Mae & Raj tmr to hand in more resumes :)

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Okay so today it hit me i wasn't going to see you like pretty much ever again. Because we don't exactly share the same friends, we don't hang and we barely talk. So its a Goodbye im guessing. & this time, its seem more real ? lol kind of. (tad bit over dramatic. ahha ) But seriously, it hit me hard and got me thinking hardout.

But yeah, put aside that i dont feel for you like i used to. But its okay to miss you right?
lol well i guess it is, so yeah i guess im going to miss seeing you everyday at school. A big jump from seeing you everyday, to not seeing you at all.

Jealousys still my bestfriend and i can't help that. It just reminds me of how much spare time you'll have on your hands --'' fml. This Quote explains fucking everything about my jealousy problem.

"Truth about girls; it doesn’t matter who dumped who or why. Whenever we see an ex with another girl, it always bothers us. Not because we’re not over you, but because we know that we used to be that girl."

But goodbye. I guess im probably going to miss you.
Actually, I Will Miss You.


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Quotes and all that other crap

Soo im pretty bored atm, and today was like a mix of emtions let me just say ?
aha so im gna copy & paste all these quotes, and mutha fuck, theres alot.
But these are the ones that i can relate to with my experience in the field of being 'in love'.
Some are really good, ahha this just spices up my blog because my life is absolutely boring right now :)

83) I would give anything to hear you calling me "baby" again

I want to remember how you’ve made me laugh and sometimes cry, and I never want to forget how special and different you are and how you’ve touched my heart in a way that no one else could.

You have given and taken a lot from me. You gave me a reason to smile, you took away my ability to love anybody else.

I think in a way that it’s good, you know? I mean, maybe it’s the only way that we could finally stand on our own. You know, to hurt each other so much that we have no choice but to let go. Maybe otherwise we never would.

I want to be immune to what you’re saying cause you’re hurting me. I just want to sit here and hate you. I need to find a way to deal with my pain and anger. I wish I could make you disappear. You want to know what my problem is? My lips say I hate you. But my heart whispers I still love you somehow.

The worst isn’t when you are in love with someone who doesn’t love you back. The worst is when you are in love with someone who used to love you.

Maybe I wasn’t asking you to love me, maybe I was asking you to understand, because for so long I’ve been hurt and for so long you’ve ignored it, and maybe it is bad timing, but maybe, I don’t care. I’ve been here all along just waiting, waiting for you to notice, waiting for you to care. Waiting for you to say that you’ve been waiting too, and you haven’t and maybe you never will or maybe you’re afraid to. But it all hurts the same, and in the end, I’m the one that’s left broken and when I lay down to sleep, I’m still the one crying, so screw the bad timing. I’ve loved you then, like I love you now, like I probably always will.

He turned around and looked right at me and said nothing. Not even hi. It was as if the months we had spent together, the time I spent loving him, just weren’t important, as if they never happened.

"The worse thing is caring about someone, wondering how they are and what they’re up to when the truth is they’ve stopped wondering about you a long time ago."

I shouldn’t want you anymore, yet I do. I have for so long. Seems like forever I’ve been sitting here, waiting for you to come riding in on your noble white steed to take me away into the sunset where we live happily ever after. But you know what? Maybe I shouldn’t be waiting. I’ve realized that I’ve wasted all this time, waiting on you when the truth was I always knew you’d never come. So I’m letting you go. So long, farewell, it’s been good. No, actually, it hasn’t.

Don’t dwell on the past. your history can’t be erased, but your future has yet to be written. make the most of what’s going to happen instead of worrying about what you can’t change. Don’t waste your time being sad, because you’re wasting away moments in which you could be happy.

Everyone has a love that they can’t forget. For me, it was him. I wasn’t going to sit there and quote poetry, or even doodle his name in hearts on all my papers. I simply accepted that things could not be and moved on. But there is always a constant wonder in the back of my mind that wonders if he ever thinks of me like I think of him.

Sometimes you need to put the past behind, the saddest aside. You need to forget everything you ever felt; your feelings, your thoughts. Everything that was ever there. Because you can’t get hurt if you don’t care.

I'm the kind of girl that wants you, but doesn't need you

I just want to live my life without you. I want to be able to wake up each morning and not wish you would call me. I want to be able to walk around with a smile and pass right by you without a second glance, without noticing that you never gave me one.

But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life.
Sometimes patience has nothing to do with it, and sometimes, no matter how much you tough it out, you’re not supposed to, and the pieces will absolutely not fall where you want them to.

"You left me. Again. So what else is new? We’ve been here. But you know, now that I think about it, something is different this time. This time, I’m not gonna spend all my time wishing for you to come back."

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aw, i love this song & the dance too.
lol if only the quality of the vid was better :(
I'm gna learn this dance soon, fml
get back into the groove. lol
TUTORIALS TUTORIAALS AHAHHAA


Welll mathematics todaaaay,
spent from 10pm - 1am doing notes. i feel proud
lol just bludging atm, gna go to school at like 11.

I just realised.. it's the year 12's 2nd last day.
Wont see any tomorrow, whoah.
It will probably be small chances to see these guys ever again
whoah.

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Geography

I seriously cannot be fucked to study for this stupid fuckhead subject that i will not need later in life. Should've just done bio instead, why the hell did i choose it.
So like it's 11.40pm atm, and so far my notes are "The Atmosphere" ahha
thats all ive done in the passed 2 hours :) fucking cannot be bothered for this dumb subject

I think i have decided to DROP Geography and keep Art. Arts gna be a shitload with the hairyass muthafucking cunt of a teacher but it'll be better than failing.
.. but its still an 'I Think'.

Okay, heres the dilema.
Art -
PRO's - i have a potential to learn. I love the practical stuff
CON's - I hate the teacher cos his a fuckhead, it'll scale me down, none of the year 12's like it.

Geography -
PRO's - The best bludge in the woooorld, teachers a sickcunt
CON's - i dont learn anything and apparently theres alot of content. Apparently in yr12 youll have to do 3 essays, multiple choice and short answer. Dont like the way Sir teaches.

So which one bro ? ahah fml its the hardest in the world.

Ohhhh i wna make a cover to 'Sooner than Later - Drake (Erika David remake)'
She's soo good. whoo!

Interesting

HAH, sooo yday.. i wrote my essay at 7pm.
read over my essays before i went to sleep
then tried reading over it in the morning,
Guess what? i wrote 11 pages all up.
4 pages for drama, 4 pages for creative writing and 3 for poems but i didnt finish!

I went liverpool library today as usual,
AHHA drove in Mig's car. LOL shiiit box
i apparently hit my head on the seat when he stopped & his car broke down in the middle of the roaaad. lol

So i went and i stayed there by myself studying for geography for like ..
1 hour maybe? then Ray came and after Edward.
aha good talks with these 2, pretty goood !
Ian came and we wanted to eat, so we left ian and ate in westf
aha guys are 'deep'. Talking about the most interesting subject in the world
and Edward promised me details later on ..
GOOD STUFF.

Ian started penetrating my loose leaf papers with his tounge
because him & Edward were showing us how fast they could move them.
ahah idiotttts. They started talking about wanking,
how much better it was when they were younger.
AHHA LOL, very interesting brooo.

but yeah, thats my day.
How boring is my life now huh ?

Got inspired by the creative writing task,
so im writing a love story as we speak. Its getting me excited ahha
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Day before the exams.

So the plan for today was ...
go to church then when i come back, ill study hardout yeah ?
lol i was full set on it.

Sooo i went to church, came hoome ..
slept for a bit, drove to wattle grove to pick up my cousins,
took some luvos, slept again, drove to my cousins house to pick up some ingredients for palabok, on the net for a bit & reading shit, chatting, decided that i'd study at 5pm, 5pm came cbf so i slept. started my actual essays at 7 :)
AHAH procrastination hardout. ahhaha eff that bro.

www.fmylife.com - kills alot of time ;)
Click on 'TOP' FMLs - heaps funnier.


Yeaaah.. because english was not boring at all, i took this.
Very productive aye ?

Yeah i spend too much time with this lappy. haha i should stop.

I really really miss 2008.
Everything was heaps good.
Billionaire Girls were at their strongest
Blacktown crew were madd close
Nothing wrong with the family friends.

Billionaire Girls -
I miss you'se dearly. (even though i see you'se errday) Remember those lunches where we'd walk to our spot (underneath the ball ring) and if we'd see the yr 9's sitting there, we'd sit up as close to them until they'd get annoyed and piss off. How we'd dominate that court.
Lunches where we'd update eachother, even though we had our little bestfriend groups within bgc, we'd still pretty much tell everyone everything. Lunches where we'd just laugh at seriously nothing, got us abs on the inside :) Our massive fights with the other group over the small little things and they'd think we were really unhappy but we were never better. *How we used to give each other birthday presents.
We surprised Alyssa with a gag present of rabens .. brought her outside and there was a bike waiting for her. Later that year she stacked it.
When you guys bought me an ipod bkos i broke my nano, put it in the smallest box and i had to open like a million of them to get to the middle & each layer had those chinese lollies i love.
When we bought Aimee her 2 hermit crabs that she sooo wanted, then didnt look after them after a couple months. And her cooking mama that she was totes obsessed with.
We bought ShaSha her camera & surprised her at camp. i remember trying not to make it obvious ahha but it wasnt working. Then rocking up at camp in our hectic 'WTH' pants.
When we bought Nona her long wanted book for Twilight and the jacket. We put an apple in her locker symbolising the first book, a ribbon for the next one and then a rose for the last? aha something like that & we put her book in a Cake box so she wouldnt guess it.
When we bought Pauline her kookai pjays (that i hope she still has) and her necklace with bgc on it.
When we bought Kristianne her new camera bkos her old one .. broke ? or she lost it. ahha one of them
We made katherine those picture frame things, idk what you call them. Scrapbooking? aha yeah a million of them. and then her birthday became her birthday week. aha
Then lastly we got Mae her Bear. ahha which we lagged hardout and gave at the begining of this year. ahhaha shit we got so lazy ! --"

but yes, i miss you'se alot.
Aimee Magugat
Alyssa Ventura
Katherine Rafaraci
Kristianne Sadio
Pauline Khoo
Sharlyne Batulan
Zelda Matabang
Wynona Pacheco.
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Japhet & Jasmine

[b]. japjap[/b] . 612 says:
yesterday
was like first day of exams
and we went to maccas to celebrate finiishing firs day
and then we somehow got to the topic of me
and jasmine was like
yeh remember when you had all these girls
and im like wtf who?!
yknow what jasmine said about you?

/S. Reezuuh. says:
Ooo Pimpay ;)
WHAT ?

[b]. japjap[/b] . 612 says:
shariza's the hottest of em all

/S. Reezuuh. says:
AAH WHAT ?
are you kidding ?

[b]. japjap[/b] . 612 says:
as if
nah she really said it
heh heh and im like
yeh... she was aye ;)

awwww
'Random topics' LOOOL.

Oooh fuck, and their photo's from Japhets birthday.
THE MOST BEAUITFUL ;)
Best lighting out cos he knows his photographic techniques & he's teaching me what ISO, Aperture & Shutter speed is bkos photogs is my fb lesson :D

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Q to the LD

Well, it was a fucking mission to wake up at 5am :(
Our flight got cancelled then we got switched to another flight.. then when we got to GC the fucking airline didnt bring out bags onto the switched flight. so we had no clothes.
So we went to Harbour Town. On the way there, i saw so many random boys running around without tops and like sexy tans. faaaaah ;) Lets all go live in qld. I see no topless boys in nsw :(

Note: I seriously advise you to visit this place. Fucking sales like no tmr :)

Bought 3 pairs of pants and a singlet/dress
then we got back to the hotel and we slept there. Foxtel baby! ;)


New Pants :)




Best Photo of my parents out - Kodak Styles.

We got up and went to 'White Water World' (Fuck my life, dont go there. ahha It's so shit. Apart from sexy boys running around in groups, its no good. I recommend 'Wet 'n' Wild' )
So after going on like 5 slides, we took showers and went to dreamworld, got our id's taken.

I went on some rugrats rollercoaster, the Claw, Wipeout. Those were the best, aha if you guys go to Dreamworld, make sure the people your with aren't pussies :( Or else you'd have to go on rides by yourself, like i did. ahha sucked bro.. ahha screaming by myself and swearing at randoms. aah (Y)


Seeee, in between 2 people i dont know. AHHA smiling at my mother :)

Then we went to the shopping center. Same thing, lol
We ate at the Buffet. Seafood night. The food was soooo amazing, aha its worth the money bro omg. aha After a plate of food, i go full :( wasted the 'all you can eat' ahha

That night, my lovely Emilynn was nice enough to call me.. accidentally called her 'Priscilla' aha cos she woke me up. But we had our usual lovely dnms :)

Last day we went back to the shopping center to buy my sister her shoes. Yeah she bought like 80$ shoes but she wanted the 130$ ones. We went back to dreamworld and rode more rides.. got boring. lol Yah make sure your with a bunch of people to make it more fun!

Took fotos with fake animals. AHAHAH the best, mother kept screaming at me cos of the way i'd 'act' in the foto. Yaknow how your meant to be scared? ahaha i was full befriending them :)

My favourite Croc :) S'what i do when my head is in its mouth. HAH

I want a tiger, lol how cool would that be aye.

Yeah just drove around pretty much, then stayed at the airport like 1 hour early. AHHA When your like really bored, you dont understand how fun 'snap' can get. aha I lost against my 11 yr old sister :( ahah

FAHH i love her. She's soooo blonde sometimes. ahah She kept thinking we were out of the country .. so my mum offered her some slimfast bar to taste .. and she goes "oh nah, its okay. I already tried in back in Australia" AHHA LMFAO
then she'd be like "mum, ate.. can you still call australia from here?"
awww, we had our mini dnms during the breaks in between Glee :)

Oh yeah, i tried on this French Connection dress,
i want it for beach :( its fucking expensive but ..
yaknow, only like $200. lol 'only'



anyways, my update.
My escape from reality.
Fuck prelims (Y)
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