Krz cm ovr m hows = "Kris came over my house"
Hectic short cuts thats doing peoples heads in. HAHAHA

I love hanging with her, theyre always last minute
and random :) lol well cbf typing, got into the shortcut writing
bt yeaaaah.

S.Reezuuh ft. Kayd

FUCK FUCK FUCK LMAO. this made my night.

"You know why they call me 0014?
Because im twice as good as 007! "

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Year 12's officially finished.
Some are glad that schools over and some are going to miss it terribly. Personally, if i were there (which i would be next year) i would miss school a hell of a lot.
I'd miss the escape from home, the friendships that are so easily formed just by being in the same class, 'lunch & recess', have all the different cliques at school, having those bludgy days where events happen at school. Theres so much more that i would miss.

I dont get others people's happiness in wanting to leave school so much, whats so bad about it? All the assignments, all the homework ? CUZ, all that hasn't finished.. you've still got tafe or uni or whatver, which would be so much more harder than High School.

Well for me, it's too late to keep making the most of year 11 cos we're already finished.

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Eletheowl, You fucking make my day.
Theres just so much i can relate to.
"You find people, and then you lose them. Nothing lasts forever, contrary to popular belief. And it’s those goodbyes, the ones you’d never thought you had to say; it’s those that hurt the most."

Kb

Baby, Aurora Faith Alejandro

She's so small, i could fucking fit her in my bag & take her home.

ahah you dont understand my obsession with babies.

At church i barely pay attention when theres a baby around

cos i try to get their attention. ahha

i love babies that have creases in their arms & legs.

ahha and if one walks passed, i stare. ahha

People who hang with me would know :)

Saw Matthew Abarquez today too.

Havent seen this boy in forever. I taught him how to give the best hugs out.

x

Last week of school.

I want you to be my girl - Johnta Austin
"Baby you a 10, let me be your gir', let me be your friend
Darling here's my hand, darling here's my heart"
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I went to Miranda today. aw yay, home of my bestfriend --"
fml. lol i couldnt be bothered downloading eps 22-25 of GG season 2, so i just watched ep 1 of GG season 3. FUCK, its goood. aha
BEST LINE THROUGHOUT THE EPISODE
"I'm not Chuck Bass without you"
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This emotional crap has NOT gone down :( fml
it's doing my head in sooo bad, i hate it.

x

GOOD SHIT

OMGOMG.
This song is my type of shit bro, ahhahaha
depressssing but heaps good.

- wtf is with these blogs, all seem depressing guys
lol should be over this by the end of the weeekend :)

It's Not Just You - Nasri

Darling, I know your heart seen better times
I know our songs have better rhymes, before today
Darling, I guess I made the wrong mistakes
I understand if you need your space
Please take your time

[Hook]
Before you go away,
So far away
You need to realize

[Chorus:]
Baby it's not just you,
You know it hurts me too
Watching you leave with tears on your sleeve
Notice that mine are not exactly dry
Baby it's not just you,
That's hurting, it's me too

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So tonight, me & Karenren got bored
and we got onto the topic of boys.
We made our own lists of what our perfect boy is going to be like.
This guy, i reckon, is non-existent
but someone will come ever so close :)
This is too specific bro, ahaha shit. lol

Appearance Wise
- Hecticest Jawline (Major Weakness)
- Sexy ;)
- Good Dress Sense
Forgot one that was on karen's list.
- Someone who has a smile that makes me melt every time
Personality Wise
- Outgoing / Confident
-Patient
- Sense of Humour
- Loyalty
- Knows me inside and out
- Keeps promises
- Doesn't run away from problems
- Doesn't lie
- Isn't a 'playa playa'
- Isn't cliche and is spontaneous
- Doesn't abuse the words 'I love you'
- Can either sing or dance (either is sexy)
- A guy that will no matter what, listen to all my complaints and bitching.
- A guy who understands how my mind words. Knows that i can't help it, so tries to deal with it the right way.
- Someone i can turn to without him judging me
- SOMEONE I WILL NOT ARGUE WITH 24/7. that seems soo impossible, but it isnt. I know a couple that don't fight at all

Longing for a cry.

I really badly want to watch this movie :(



But everytime i try to download it, it says its going to take like 1-2 days to download. Stupid dumbfuck internet. ahha I feel like crying you fuck.
ahhaa soo im gna look around & see who has it :)

Today was average. Went shopping today at DFO after going to Olympic Pools. I know what im wearing to Gondi on friday :) I cannot wait, seriously! Might go to Mounty tmr to watch GDT plaay bball at kb ;) whoo, sexys. lol hope they win bro, i havent seen them in forever

QUOTE OF THE DAY. Its so sad bro.
"I'm scared to move on because I’m worried that the second I’m happy with someone else, you’ll pop up and ruin it. Ruin it by telling me that you want me, and that you’re sorry, and that you like me “kinda a lot,” and that you miss me “kinda a lot.” I’m worried that I’ll get so confused because I’ll be so happy with him, but of course I’ll still want you, and that will make me start crying all the time, end up losing the best relationship I ever had, just to have you get bored again and move onto some trashy girl. The worst part about all of this? I can see you doing it, because you want me hooked, you want me as an option, even if it is an option you’ll never take. "

x

btw, fuck SOR & Chemistry :(

EELS VS. DOGGIES

I HAVE NEVER EVER LIKED SOO MANY STATUS' IN MY LIFE!
AHAHAHHA :L
but fuck my life, good game :)
lol Hayne's so sexy ! lol Found a new love. ahah
He made me jump on my chairs :)
So adds to my list ..
Adam Brody, Aj Rafael and Jarryd Hayne. whoo


AND OMG, I LOVE FUI FUI MOI MOI!
ahah his the best, ahah his cute.
Just charges with like 10 guys holding onto him still
ahah yeaah man, aha good night.


& the best addd ! ahaha



So yeah, today i gave all my resume's in.
Cross fingers i get a job bro..
im sooooo povo ! LOL
x

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im in love with 'eletheowl's quotes bro.
Totessss can relate. Lol.

Sheryl-rabbs & Ben10 rabbs. essssh adlayz.

Ben10's version of his obese person.
AHHAHAHAHAHAHA but my beats him.



My version of rabbs :) ahhaha shit hey, its hectic.
btw, the lines under the guys mouth are chin folds ! AHHAHAH
x

Last Day Until Forever.

Whoah, this is like my 3rd blog today. shit

AHAH had fun with the lovely couple today, Raaajbhai and Mae. LMFAO we all share this one inparticular thing, our names will never be on that list for free boost. fml.

So we just stayed in the food court for a while and just talked about people. aha not bad or anything, just discussing. ahha Discussing what was new in our lives, which was pointless cos our lives were pretty much the same. aha They came to give my resume's in.
SCORE, i gave in my resumes to Vakko, Miss IT and Gloss. AHHA FAIL cos i only had 3 resumes. ahahah but yeah, then we went into Toys R Us. Fah, i havent been inside that shop in forever, since i was like Tb and shit. ahha
Took fotos of suraj's SMALL halloween party ;) and my Spooky Graveyard.
AHHAHAHAHA dw, upload fotos later when im bothered.
but yes, had fun. Going to meet up with Mae & Raj tmr to hand in more resumes :)

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Okay so today it hit me i wasn't going to see you like pretty much ever again. Because we don't exactly share the same friends, we don't hang and we barely talk. So its a Goodbye im guessing. & this time, its seem more real ? lol kind of. (tad bit over dramatic. ahha ) But seriously, it hit me hard and got me thinking hardout.

But yeah, put aside that i dont feel for you like i used to. But its okay to miss you right?
lol well i guess it is, so yeah i guess im going to miss seeing you everyday at school. A big jump from seeing you everyday, to not seeing you at all.

Jealousys still my bestfriend and i can't help that. It just reminds me of how much spare time you'll have on your hands --'' fml. This Quote explains fucking everything about my jealousy problem.

"Truth about girls; it doesn’t matter who dumped who or why. Whenever we see an ex with another girl, it always bothers us. Not because we’re not over you, but because we know that we used to be that girl."

But goodbye. I guess im probably going to miss you.
Actually, I Will Miss You.


x

Quotes and all that other crap

Soo im pretty bored atm, and today was like a mix of emtions let me just say ?
aha so im gna copy & paste all these quotes, and mutha fuck, theres alot.
But these are the ones that i can relate to with my experience in the field of being 'in love'.
Some are really good, ahha this just spices up my blog because my life is absolutely boring right now :)

83) I would give anything to hear you calling me "baby" again

I want to remember how you’ve made me laugh and sometimes cry, and I never want to forget how special and different you are and how you’ve touched my heart in a way that no one else could.

You have given and taken a lot from me. You gave me a reason to smile, you took away my ability to love anybody else.

I think in a way that it’s good, you know? I mean, maybe it’s the only way that we could finally stand on our own. You know, to hurt each other so much that we have no choice but to let go. Maybe otherwise we never would.

I want to be immune to what you’re saying cause you’re hurting me. I just want to sit here and hate you. I need to find a way to deal with my pain and anger. I wish I could make you disappear. You want to know what my problem is? My lips say I hate you. But my heart whispers I still love you somehow.

The worst isn’t when you are in love with someone who doesn’t love you back. The worst is when you are in love with someone who used to love you.

Maybe I wasn’t asking you to love me, maybe I was asking you to understand, because for so long I’ve been hurt and for so long you’ve ignored it, and maybe it is bad timing, but maybe, I don’t care. I’ve been here all along just waiting, waiting for you to notice, waiting for you to care. Waiting for you to say that you’ve been waiting too, and you haven’t and maybe you never will or maybe you’re afraid to. But it all hurts the same, and in the end, I’m the one that’s left broken and when I lay down to sleep, I’m still the one crying, so screw the bad timing. I’ve loved you then, like I love you now, like I probably always will.

He turned around and looked right at me and said nothing. Not even hi. It was as if the months we had spent together, the time I spent loving him, just weren’t important, as if they never happened.

"The worse thing is caring about someone, wondering how they are and what they’re up to when the truth is they’ve stopped wondering about you a long time ago."

I shouldn’t want you anymore, yet I do. I have for so long. Seems like forever I’ve been sitting here, waiting for you to come riding in on your noble white steed to take me away into the sunset where we live happily ever after. But you know what? Maybe I shouldn’t be waiting. I’ve realized that I’ve wasted all this time, waiting on you when the truth was I always knew you’d never come. So I’m letting you go. So long, farewell, it’s been good. No, actually, it hasn’t.

Don’t dwell on the past. your history can’t be erased, but your future has yet to be written. make the most of what’s going to happen instead of worrying about what you can’t change. Don’t waste your time being sad, because you’re wasting away moments in which you could be happy.

Everyone has a love that they can’t forget. For me, it was him. I wasn’t going to sit there and quote poetry, or even doodle his name in hearts on all my papers. I simply accepted that things could not be and moved on. But there is always a constant wonder in the back of my mind that wonders if he ever thinks of me like I think of him.

Sometimes you need to put the past behind, the saddest aside. You need to forget everything you ever felt; your feelings, your thoughts. Everything that was ever there. Because you can’t get hurt if you don’t care.

I'm the kind of girl that wants you, but doesn't need you

I just want to live my life without you. I want to be able to wake up each morning and not wish you would call me. I want to be able to walk around with a smile and pass right by you without a second glance, without noticing that you never gave me one.

But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life.
Sometimes patience has nothing to do with it, and sometimes, no matter how much you tough it out, you’re not supposed to, and the pieces will absolutely not fall where you want them to.

"You left me. Again. So what else is new? We’ve been here. But you know, now that I think about it, something is different this time. This time, I’m not gonna spend all my time wishing for you to come back."

x

aw, i love this song & the dance too.
lol if only the quality of the vid was better :(
I'm gna learn this dance soon, fml
get back into the groove. lol
TUTORIALS TUTORIAALS AHAHHAA


Welll mathematics todaaaay,
spent from 10pm - 1am doing notes. i feel proud
lol just bludging atm, gna go to school at like 11.

I just realised.. it's the year 12's 2nd last day.
Wont see any tomorrow, whoah.
It will probably be small chances to see these guys ever again
whoah.

x

Geography

I seriously cannot be fucked to study for this stupid fuckhead subject that i will not need later in life. Should've just done bio instead, why the hell did i choose it.
So like it's 11.40pm atm, and so far my notes are "The Atmosphere" ahha
thats all ive done in the passed 2 hours :) fucking cannot be bothered for this dumb subject

I think i have decided to DROP Geography and keep Art. Arts gna be a shitload with the hairyass muthafucking cunt of a teacher but it'll be better than failing.
.. but its still an 'I Think'.

Okay, heres the dilema.
Art -
PRO's - i have a potential to learn. I love the practical stuff
CON's - I hate the teacher cos his a fuckhead, it'll scale me down, none of the year 12's like it.

Geography -
PRO's - The best bludge in the woooorld, teachers a sickcunt
CON's - i dont learn anything and apparently theres alot of content. Apparently in yr12 youll have to do 3 essays, multiple choice and short answer. Dont like the way Sir teaches.

So which one bro ? ahah fml its the hardest in the world.

Ohhhh i wna make a cover to 'Sooner than Later - Drake (Erika David remake)'
She's soo good. whoo!

Interesting

HAH, sooo yday.. i wrote my essay at 7pm.
read over my essays before i went to sleep
then tried reading over it in the morning,
Guess what? i wrote 11 pages all up.
4 pages for drama, 4 pages for creative writing and 3 for poems but i didnt finish!

I went liverpool library today as usual,
AHHA drove in Mig's car. LOL shiiit box
i apparently hit my head on the seat when he stopped & his car broke down in the middle of the roaaad. lol

So i went and i stayed there by myself studying for geography for like ..
1 hour maybe? then Ray came and after Edward.
aha good talks with these 2, pretty goood !
Ian came and we wanted to eat, so we left ian and ate in westf
aha guys are 'deep'. Talking about the most interesting subject in the world
and Edward promised me details later on ..
GOOD STUFF.

Ian started penetrating my loose leaf papers with his tounge
because him & Edward were showing us how fast they could move them.
ahah idiotttts. They started talking about wanking,
how much better it was when they were younger.
AHHA LOL, very interesting brooo.

but yeah, thats my day.
How boring is my life now huh ?

Got inspired by the creative writing task,
so im writing a love story as we speak. Its getting me excited ahha
x

Day before the exams.

So the plan for today was ...
go to church then when i come back, ill study hardout yeah ?
lol i was full set on it.

Sooo i went to church, came hoome ..
slept for a bit, drove to wattle grove to pick up my cousins,
took some luvos, slept again, drove to my cousins house to pick up some ingredients for palabok, on the net for a bit & reading shit, chatting, decided that i'd study at 5pm, 5pm came cbf so i slept. started my actual essays at 7 :)
AHAH procrastination hardout. ahhaha eff that bro.

www.fmylife.com - kills alot of time ;)
Click on 'TOP' FMLs - heaps funnier.


Yeaaah.. because english was not boring at all, i took this.
Very productive aye ?

Yeah i spend too much time with this lappy. haha i should stop.

I really really miss 2008.
Everything was heaps good.
Billionaire Girls were at their strongest
Blacktown crew were madd close
Nothing wrong with the family friends.

Billionaire Girls -
I miss you'se dearly. (even though i see you'se errday) Remember those lunches where we'd walk to our spot (underneath the ball ring) and if we'd see the yr 9's sitting there, we'd sit up as close to them until they'd get annoyed and piss off. How we'd dominate that court.
Lunches where we'd update eachother, even though we had our little bestfriend groups within bgc, we'd still pretty much tell everyone everything. Lunches where we'd just laugh at seriously nothing, got us abs on the inside :) Our massive fights with the other group over the small little things and they'd think we were really unhappy but we were never better. *How we used to give each other birthday presents.
We surprised Alyssa with a gag present of rabens .. brought her outside and there was a bike waiting for her. Later that year she stacked it.
When you guys bought me an ipod bkos i broke my nano, put it in the smallest box and i had to open like a million of them to get to the middle & each layer had those chinese lollies i love.
When we bought Aimee her 2 hermit crabs that she sooo wanted, then didnt look after them after a couple months. And her cooking mama that she was totes obsessed with.
We bought ShaSha her camera & surprised her at camp. i remember trying not to make it obvious ahha but it wasnt working. Then rocking up at camp in our hectic 'WTH' pants.
When we bought Nona her long wanted book for Twilight and the jacket. We put an apple in her locker symbolising the first book, a ribbon for the next one and then a rose for the last? aha something like that & we put her book in a Cake box so she wouldnt guess it.
When we bought Pauline her kookai pjays (that i hope she still has) and her necklace with bgc on it.
When we bought Kristianne her new camera bkos her old one .. broke ? or she lost it. ahha one of them
We made katherine those picture frame things, idk what you call them. Scrapbooking? aha yeah a million of them. and then her birthday became her birthday week. aha
Then lastly we got Mae her Bear. ahha which we lagged hardout and gave at the begining of this year. ahhaha shit we got so lazy ! --"

but yes, i miss you'se alot.
Aimee Magugat
Alyssa Ventura
Katherine Rafaraci
Kristianne Sadio
Pauline Khoo
Sharlyne Batulan
Zelda Matabang
Wynona Pacheco.
x

Japhet & Jasmine

[b]. japjap[/b] . 612 says:
yesterday
was like first day of exams
and we went to maccas to celebrate finiishing firs day
and then we somehow got to the topic of me
and jasmine was like
yeh remember when you had all these girls
and im like wtf who?!
yknow what jasmine said about you?

/S. Reezuuh. says:
Ooo Pimpay ;)
WHAT ?

[b]. japjap[/b] . 612 says:
shariza's the hottest of em all

/S. Reezuuh. says:
AAH WHAT ?
are you kidding ?

[b]. japjap[/b] . 612 says:
as if
nah she really said it
heh heh and im like
yeh... she was aye ;)

awwww
'Random topics' LOOOL.

Oooh fuck, and their photo's from Japhets birthday.
THE MOST BEAUITFUL ;)
Best lighting out cos he knows his photographic techniques & he's teaching me what ISO, Aperture & Shutter speed is bkos photogs is my fb lesson :D

x

Q to the LD

Well, it was a fucking mission to wake up at 5am :(
Our flight got cancelled then we got switched to another flight.. then when we got to GC the fucking airline didnt bring out bags onto the switched flight. so we had no clothes.
So we went to Harbour Town. On the way there, i saw so many random boys running around without tops and like sexy tans. faaaaah ;) Lets all go live in qld. I see no topless boys in nsw :(

Note: I seriously advise you to visit this place. Fucking sales like no tmr :)

Bought 3 pairs of pants and a singlet/dress
then we got back to the hotel and we slept there. Foxtel baby! ;)


New Pants :)




Best Photo of my parents out - Kodak Styles.

We got up and went to 'White Water World' (Fuck my life, dont go there. ahha It's so shit. Apart from sexy boys running around in groups, its no good. I recommend 'Wet 'n' Wild' )
So after going on like 5 slides, we took showers and went to dreamworld, got our id's taken.

I went on some rugrats rollercoaster, the Claw, Wipeout. Those were the best, aha if you guys go to Dreamworld, make sure the people your with aren't pussies :( Or else you'd have to go on rides by yourself, like i did. ahha sucked bro.. ahha screaming by myself and swearing at randoms. aah (Y)


Seeee, in between 2 people i dont know. AHHA smiling at my mother :)

Then we went to the shopping center. Same thing, lol
We ate at the Buffet. Seafood night. The food was soooo amazing, aha its worth the money bro omg. aha After a plate of food, i go full :( wasted the 'all you can eat' ahha

That night, my lovely Emilynn was nice enough to call me.. accidentally called her 'Priscilla' aha cos she woke me up. But we had our usual lovely dnms :)

Last day we went back to the shopping center to buy my sister her shoes. Yeah she bought like 80$ shoes but she wanted the 130$ ones. We went back to dreamworld and rode more rides.. got boring. lol Yah make sure your with a bunch of people to make it more fun!

Took fotos with fake animals. AHAHAH the best, mother kept screaming at me cos of the way i'd 'act' in the foto. Yaknow how your meant to be scared? ahaha i was full befriending them :)

My favourite Croc :) S'what i do when my head is in its mouth. HAH

I want a tiger, lol how cool would that be aye.

Yeah just drove around pretty much, then stayed at the airport like 1 hour early. AHHA When your like really bored, you dont understand how fun 'snap' can get. aha I lost against my 11 yr old sister :( ahah

FAHH i love her. She's soooo blonde sometimes. ahah She kept thinking we were out of the country .. so my mum offered her some slimfast bar to taste .. and she goes "oh nah, its okay. I already tried in back in Australia" AHHA LMFAO
then she'd be like "mum, ate.. can you still call australia from here?"
awww, we had our mini dnms during the breaks in between Glee :)

Oh yeah, i tried on this French Connection dress,
i want it for beach :( its fucking expensive but ..
yaknow, only like $200. lol 'only'



anyways, my update.
My escape from reality.
Fuck prelims (Y)
x

Over it

Fah bro, life was going good for a while there
without anything happening or bumping my happiness down
i was so fucking happy, things were going good.

I'm over having problems in my life,
i want life smooth for now
all those problems were gone,
omg just got them out of the way
and in came another.

I'm just going to drop it, seriously
im not bothered to fight or argue or whatever
i've got a life and ive got better things to do
I dont want the 'jehn' thing happening again,
didnt deserve that & i dont want this.
I didnt even say shit about you,
i only said that i didnt like you, repeatedly
im not "obsessing" over you. go look it up in the dictionary.

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PRELIMS SOON. FUCK
I need to study
English
Photography
Geography
Maths 2 unit
Chemistry
SOR
Art

The order in which i will start studying. fml

1 more week till Prelims.

N2S - Start bloody studying bro.
HAHA

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Soo guys, how is everybody ?
Well right now, i feel the fucking best :) like seriously,
feelings are going away, thinking less, missing him less
OH YEAAAH BABY. I feel pretty goood
Like as those things are going away,
no more worrying about shit, no more problems
relieving me of problems aye :)
one thing i know is, jealousys still gna be there so eff that.
Im good, your good? we're all good. haa
I still miss him at times, but im not obsessed with 'Part of the List'
anymore therefore my list of things that i miss is gone aswell.
that was last week's song. This weeks songs are ..
"U Turn - Stevie Hoang and ..
Not Anymore - Neyo"
inspiring songs, both about no more going back.
Exactly what im going to do ..

"Somebody say, i dont want it anymore
Somebody say, i dont want it anymore
Cause i've dried my eyes and i realized
I deserve somebody that''ll treat me right"

Pretty good aye? well yeah its good.

Going to hang with my lovely Joefan this week :)
full take fotos and hang like we used too
OH OH and Japhet gets his braces in Nov
therefore coming to Livo fortnightly,
therefore hang with him every second week.
How hectic is thaat omg.

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I LOVE THIS LAPTOPS WEBCAM! :D
im gna cry when my dad takes it back :(


x

Satday.

So i was sooooooo excited to go Japhet's birthday today.
Like omg, first thought when i woke up in the morninggg
and then after breakfast/lunch, i found out we were going
maaaatha fuck. i got soo pissed off that we didnt go
over this one fucking lame excuse, so i went out with kristianne today
shopping made her feel rich :) aha so yeah i bought my dark brown hair dye

We came back to my house & video called japhet
I MET CARLA :) whoo, yeah finially.
She called me 'the famous shariza aurellana'
aww, lol bkos aparently japhet talks about me?
but yeah good stuff. We sang happy birthday,
we danced & shit. aha pretty cool.

I started dying my hair around 730,
we read some mags & looked up the anatomy of certain body parts
LMFAOOO how ugly is a penis. aha
but then again, how ugly is a vag.
BLAME THE COMSO MAGS. :D

She left & i took out my hair at 930.
DARK BROWN HAIR ACHIEVED, next step ..
green eyes.
after that, i'm all set :D

thats my day for yaaaa, how boring aye?
HAPPY JAPHET CABANGCA!


x

Family

This is so fucking stupid. All you fucking adults need to fucking grow the fuck up okay?
seriously, whats happening is soo stupid. It is and it will affect fucking everyone including us children. Grow balls, Say sorry, Mend Friendships. Do whatever the hell you can to fucking fix this because we all know it'll never be the same again.
No more New Years Eves
No more Christmas'
No more Weekly Parties where the dads get pissed drunk
No more time where the mothers are in the lounge room gossiping
No more little annoying kids running around screaming
No more Teens just watching movies or listening to the ipod
No more fucking bonding.

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?
I dont know how the fuck it got so big,
but i notice all this and i hate it. I miss all of youse.
can you just grow up? seriously, all of youse.
Its affecting everyone, esp the children.
The kids dont understand exactly whats happening
and why we dont see eachother often anymore
the random fonecalls about parties & shit.
THERES NO MORE OF THEM!

To the ..
Rana Family,
To the ..
Tamayao Family
To the ..
Enriquez Family
To the ..
Padua Families
& who ever else is affect by this nonsense .
I FUCKING MISS ALL OF YOUSE :(
PLEASE MEND THIS STUPID FUCKING ARGUMENT .
like now. ?
x

Harold & Kumar

Even if this poem sounds hella geeky, its one of the cutest poems out.

"Root Three"
I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

Blast from the Past

Jonathan Mari Castro.

Taken in 2006

Aw this boy, i really miss him so so soooo much.
We caught up today, it was pretty good. Reminds me of all the times we spent together ..

This one time, we were on the phone and he wanted to experiment if it was possible to be on the phone and take a shower at the same time. SO HE DID.

He got one of those sandwich bags and wrapped it around his phone, he then put me on loudspeaker so he could still hear me. It was just like normal, just sounded like it was raining really heavily and he had to scream a bit. Then the faggot started moaning, so i recorded it and the Terence fucking bashed the door asking what he was doing because all he could hear was moaning... so Jono says "Oh, the waters cold" AHAHHAHA
awwww ..

We ALWAYS used to watch power rangers together, whenever we could.

We'd call eachother up at 2am or text eachother at 2am and watch it at the same time

We'd always laugh at pretty much anything, but it was seriously good.

We were always happy and cheerful.

He'd send me random long ass messages when he was bored, well he pretty much sent me a msg at any random time because he was probably bored.

This one time, my boyfriend was meant to call me but fell asleep on some other girl on the phone.. so i called him and we talked from 12am - 6am. My longest phone ever :) and still, noones beaten it.

Times that he came over to "teach" me guitar but failed because i barely paid attention. Yet he still managed to teach me lemonade which was pretty much the only song i could play at the time with my obsession with wanting to play the guitar.

He was always there for me in my times of need, when i'd be crying. Even though he's ALWAYS say "aw bestie, its okay . Everything will be fine". He still managed to take my mind off the problems :)

aw bro, heaps more.
Miss you man
x

On Shuffle.

So much about this crazy game they call love.
I'm a mess right now, wont you hold me together? i'm pouring out.
I hope that where ever i go, i wont be alone
So could you be my best friend,
Before you call yourself my man
But there's just parts of the lists, things that i miss.

Fucking sad songs.
Someone buy me more liquid liner?
Mines nearly gone, the amount ive wasted is amazing.

Part of the list.

"..Cause life goes on and you can never be replaced but you can always be forgotten." - Denise Hoang

I reckon that quote is so genius right there! I don't know what it is, but i love it, I'm in love with it. Its something that everyone can relate to, something that happens in people's lives no matter what.


Denise Hoang.

'They're all part of the list,
things that i miss
Things like your funny little laugh,
or the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What i notice is this,
I come up with something new,
every single time i sit and reminisce.. '
Part of the list - Neyo

So like for the past 2 days, I've been really obsessed with this song.
It's something that's pretty much been on my mind for the past 2 days.
I think i just started missing you recently, but only at times.
Like when you're there, i don't exactly feel much.
When that girl is with you, i feel pretty much everything.
and some days when we don't talk, i miss you.

There's certain things that i have on my list, things that i miss.
The way you'd start to mumble every time you were sleepy
When you'd tell me you'd miss me after not talking to me after a day or two.
Theres just certain things that this song makes me feel
i shouldn't be listening to it, i know, but it's whats left i guess.

I don't know, i remember this one night we were talking
and out of nowhere, your emotions changed in a blink of an eye
just because of this song 'Say Ok'. You told me what was on your mind,
how you'd wonder 'why?'. Why we broke up, why we never had the best timing, when we were ever going to have the best timing
Yaknow, i wonder those things too. But those questions seem so impossible to answer
they're like the questions 'Whats my purpose in life?'.
So simple, yet one of the hardest questions to answer.

But seriously, why am i still stuck to you?
x

Shariza is becoming a Youtube Addict. :(

'.. Would you be my bestfriend, before you call yourself my man .. '
Katbadar ft Randolph Permejo - Slow Motion (Cover)


This girl has a hectic voice.
Me & Denise are going to sing like her, become famous .. & we've got a plan.
HAAA.
x

My Boyfriend.

1234/Best I Ever Had - Aj Rafael & Jenny Suk.

Awww, his so cute.

--

'.. They're all part of the list,

things i miss

Things like your funny little laugh
or the way you smile,
or the way we kiss.. '

--

Well this weekends been boring as usual, i could've gone Amanda's but i didnt.

I wish i knew people on their P's that would actually go cruising with me

ahaha this makes me sound so lonely bro.

Soo, all these blogs revolve around 1 specific subject, relationships/love.

I think that this just shows how much i put myself into these situations. How much of myself i put into a relationship, I just want no more strings attatched, muck around, nothing so serious yaknow?

I wish jealousy never existed bro. OMG kill my life, its like even though i try to ignore it, it still comes back and i dont even want to see it but its like right in front of my face i can't avoid it.

Its a bitch, everythings a bitch bro.

I want to feel nothing sometimes, how good would that be aye?

pain, hurt, sadness wouldn't be part of my life anymore.

but then again, theres all that other crap that i wont feel.

.. Happiness, Laughter, Joy .. all that, so theres the down side.

How interesting would it be if just for one day, we'd all switch genders..

'To walk a mile in eachothers shoes'.

Seriously, how would the guys feel if we ..

- Kept using excuses for 'forgetting' to call them/see them. Keep apologizing, yet keep doing it.

- To be so over protective with them, or just not care about them at all

- Make promises then breaking them after a certain amount of time

- Misusing the words ' I love you '

And, how would we feel if they ..

- Over reacted over the smallest things

- Always expected us to do the 'first move' or call them first

- Have them turn something small into something big

- Picking up signs that aren't even anything.

Theres so much more i could add to that list bro, it interests me though

seriously, like imagine. I think this shows that i have too much time on my hands. aha

x

Laughing Samoans.

FUCK MY LIFE, BRO THIS MADE MY NIGHT.



x

"I wanted you to fight for me. I wanted you to say that there was no one else that you could ever be with and that you wanted to be with me."

- One Tree Hill

On my mind.

THIS SONG MAKES ME MELT. OMG

My Plan - Gabe Bondoc.
mmmmm ;)

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i miss you
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Well yet again, another Saturday doing nothing, thought we'd be going out since my dads back home but i guess not. Sucks, it's too late to ask to go to Amanda's now :(

But on my mind right now is that whole concept of 'falling'. It really puzzles me as to how teenagers like ourselves could possibly feel like we could love someone so much to do such stupid things.

When your ''in love'', you get so blinded by everything else. You blame yourself for everything that had gone wrong, you don't see any flaws in the one you love even if they continue to hurt you. Even throughout the countless times people have told you over and over about this one person, you still don't care about what they're trying to tell you. You really just don't give a fuck because its the one you love that matters, you always look at the positive sides even though the negatives weigh down more than the positives.

I mean, i shouldn't be one to talk because I'm the main example here. But seriously, i really don't understand 'the hearts desires'. Why would you seriously stick to someone if you know how they treat you? Like, not only me but it probably goes to every person on this planet who's ever been hurt or been in love, a love that didn't work out the way they imagined it.

What pulls us into their direction? What triggers the whole 'liking' bit? I mean, when you first meet that person, you probably think that you wouldn't have gone out with them in a million years, but in a matter of days, weeks, months the feelings develop and you start seeing each other then going out and sooner or later you love them.

Why is 'love' so powerful even at a young age. Why are the words ' I Love You' so powerful, it draws you in. I mean, i get it, i know why people like Love. Its because its why you smile after you wake up in the morning, it gives you the biggest butterflies all day before seeing that certain someone, its the feeling of those really nice hugs. Those hugs that just make you want the world to stop and make time stop so you'd stay in that moment forever where their scent is surrounding you. The happiness you get from them just calling you a certain name, from seeing their caller id on your phone or seeing a message from them. I really get it, some people really like the idea of that. They're stuck to the lovely and wonderful ideas of Love.

But that goes both ways, Love is a whole lot of problems. A lot of 'dramas in the Bahamas'. What causes so much problems? In the beginning, everything was going good, no problems at all. Out of nowhere, all this shit comes down, you find yourself arguing with them 24/7 and both of you'se aren't afraid to get mad at each other. Even though you feel the happiness, there's still the problems that come as a consequence of feeling loved. I reckon thats why, maybe for being happy and enjoying love, you'll get your consequences later in life, later when you least expect it and you feel as if these problems will never go away. Some people are mature enough and strong enough to get through these bumps, but others .. they just can't handle it. Even though they want it so bad, they can't manage to fix these problems, the problems are then left and build up until theres too many.

A question that i really wonder, How do you even fall 'out of Love'?
Is that even possible?
I reckon the love stays deep down within you, if you dont want to feel it, it goes down. If you manage to not love them anymore, you were never in love in the first place. I reckon the Love that you once felt will never go away, it'll just be suppressed within you and sooner or later will grow to love another person that comes along.

- Just some bits from this Poem.
"I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don't care back...
I've learned that you can keep going
long after you think you can't...
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that there are people who love you dearly,
but just don't know how to show it.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have."

I've learned -- Omer B. Washington

Topic of my day. lol bye
x

Jealousy

Sorry I over reacted, again..

All this week, jealousys been my best friend. No joke, its annoying though.
I don't want to care about it, but it's the little things that i can't help but notice.
The fact that you gave her your LA cap to borrow seriously shows something doesn't it?
or it might just be me again.
You showed her Edbaybay, and i thought that was our thing?
or maybe its a new thing for you & someone else.



So i just dont know. I dont want to care, but its the little things.
FUCK THE LITTLE THINGS.
x

"Sometimes all you need is someone.
Someone to make you smile when you’re sad.
Someone to tell you you’re beautiful.
Someone to give you hugs and kisses,
just because he feels like it.
Someone to talk to every night when your day ends.

Someone to say i love you and mean it.
Sometimes, all you need is that one person
to make a difference in your life."

-Wynona Pacheco's Blog.

Influence.

I'm getting soooo pissed off at my ipod. Like seriously, its not funny. All these slow songs that randomly come on and i just listen so closely to the words and somehow they relate to me. So whatever comes on, it gets me thinking. The lyrics somehow absorb into my brain and just stay there. Which is exactly why Ganga's giving me his Happy songs.

"I hate this part right here" - chyeaaah. Seriously, I hate love and I'm wakin' up and wishing you were here with me. It seems like you change your mind just like your the weather. I thought we could seriously make it work because you knocked me down. I'm missing you and i wanna be the smile you put on your face, but baby we're going in circles. Why were you always a day too late? Now you got me hatin' on the club.

FML. aha i need happy songs :(
My ipods like raided with the saddest songs ouuuuut.

OMG and Freeman. Out of all the fucking days they show up, this day they bring their year 12 kids and we get tied. OMG, just because they've got those twins, just because theyre tall and we're short. ahah fahhhh

Fuck and jealousy's such a bitch bro. This whole 'change' is going to be harder than i expected.

I just wish man, i wish so bad :(
x