So today i've read blogspots & talked to friends. I wish i had places to go & people to see on Saturdays, nawwmean.
But today, i realised something. I want to change.
Not like bad or good, just change. Nothing big, just the way i think mainly. Like before driving today, mother & i had arguments over the small pointless things about cleaning my room and chores. The usual. And she said "You are never going to change".
I didn't like hearing it but she said it. Then after talking to Patty and reading Dindah's blog, its like i want to be inspired to set my mentality like theirs. I don't know if that makes sense, not entirely be like them, just be more positive and stop worrying about the little things in life.
See, the way Patty is.. even though things hurt her, it doesn't matter because she's still strong. She still thinks the same and the fact that she's hurt still doesn't affect her mentality. And in Dindah's blogs, i can fully relate to how she feels. Being hurt, over thinking, loosing friends, missing the feeling of someone missing you? Like i can totes relate. But for now, no more relationships for me. Just going to get over whatever left i have for Edbie because we both know its over. But we're all good, still frands.
No Relationships = No more 'Dramas in the Bahamas'
The thing me & Kristianne say, how we can't wait for our UNI relationships. Boys become men and stop being as immature. More gentlemen like ;) but yeah, good things take time.
All these little imperfections i have make me who i am but it goes too much overboard. Too many misunderstandings, the way my mind works just makes myself hurt. I've been hurt so much and not just because of relationships, but because of the way my mind had worked. All this unimportant shit i worry about is useless, nothings going to change about them.
For eg, Susan Dang. I should seriously stop giving a fuck about her right? but i can't because i get jealous easily. I can't help but notice her comments & know that she talks to Edbie. It's just i really dont like her. --"
Like i shouldn't care anymore because 'the past is the past' right? I'm going to try and change all this. I wont assume anymore because like S. says "to assume only makes an 'ass' our of 'u' and 'me'" get it ? ahah k lame but yeah.
I'll try to stop reading into signs, signs that aren't even bloody signs. Try to stop over-analyse my waking life. See, if i do all that it'll stop making people angry and it'll stop annoying my friends. Live life as i go and take whatevers coming.
x
(how boring is this. It's all words ahah sorry guuuuys :L )
But today, i realised something. I want to change.
Not like bad or good, just change. Nothing big, just the way i think mainly. Like before driving today, mother & i had arguments over the small pointless things about cleaning my room and chores. The usual. And she said "You are never going to change".
I didn't like hearing it but she said it. Then after talking to Patty and reading Dindah's blog, its like i want to be inspired to set my mentality like theirs. I don't know if that makes sense, not entirely be like them, just be more positive and stop worrying about the little things in life.
See, the way Patty is.. even though things hurt her, it doesn't matter because she's still strong. She still thinks the same and the fact that she's hurt still doesn't affect her mentality. And in Dindah's blogs, i can fully relate to how she feels. Being hurt, over thinking, loosing friends, missing the feeling of someone missing you? Like i can totes relate. But for now, no more relationships for me. Just going to get over whatever left i have for Edbie because we both know its over. But we're all good, still frands.
No Relationships = No more 'Dramas in the Bahamas'
The thing me & Kristianne say, how we can't wait for our UNI relationships. Boys become men and stop being as immature. More gentlemen like ;) but yeah, good things take time.
All these little imperfections i have make me who i am but it goes too much overboard. Too many misunderstandings, the way my mind works just makes myself hurt. I've been hurt so much and not just because of relationships, but because of the way my mind had worked. All this unimportant shit i worry about is useless, nothings going to change about them.
For eg, Susan Dang. I should seriously stop giving a fuck about her right? but i can't because i get jealous easily. I can't help but notice her comments & know that she talks to Edbie. It's just i really dont like her. --"
Like i shouldn't care anymore because 'the past is the past' right? I'm going to try and change all this. I wont assume anymore because like S. says "to assume only makes an 'ass' our of 'u' and 'me'" get it ? ahah k lame but yeah.
I'll try to stop reading into signs, signs that aren't even bloody signs. Try to stop over-analyse my waking life. See, if i do all that it'll stop making people angry and it'll stop annoying my friends. Live life as i go and take whatevers coming.
x
(how boring is this. It's all words ahah sorry guuuuys :L )
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