Today.

To erase painful memories.

'After this cruel memory
is seen and said,
erase these thoughts
from my heart and head.'
- Charmed.

Oh how i wish that spell really worked.
This weekend just turned into the shittest weekend of the year.
So after i wrote yesterdays blog, i just really needed someone to talk to..
i spent half an hour trying to find someone but fail. I really miss having a best friend. Feels like i've lost so many people already. First off, Nona & Kris would be the first ones i'd call but Kris is at camp & Nonas angry at me.
I'd talk to Edbie, but i can't right now. I'd talk to my other friend, but everytime i'd call them, they'd jst end up talking abt themselves. Ate clarisse & Sarah didnt answer.
fml, so i looked thru my fone & called Kimberly Anne.
She was a great help, my so called 'part-time bestfriend'.
I think the fact that a close friends mad at me made me more vulnerable to feeling hurt. I think it triggered everything else, i started feeling pain from Edbie too.
Fuck my life. I swear, i just dont want to go to school tmr :(
just run away from my fears.

Saw Edbie today too, i was talking to my mum & out of nowhere his there with his I-Ask boyz. He gave me this look, a mixture of every emotion put together in 1 stupid stare. I blanked out and i waved. i stopped talking to my mother & forgot what we talked about.

I hope im strong enough for these fears of mine.