Everyday gets harder.

I hate how i still wna be with you because i know people are gna look down on me. I know they only do that for the best but i still hate it. I just saw you walking with that Adriana girl. Really, i dont know what to do because i dont want to let you go but it hurts. I miss you, I miss you but its useless if i do because you probably dont feel the same way. I want the holidays to come, i want you to finish school already so i can just leave my hurting behind. I dont wna see you anymore so i dont have to deal with my feelings, so i wont have to deal with this pain. I miss you so much. Why did we end it? We broke it up and it didnt even fix anything. I never wanted it over and i still dont. I still want you, i still like you heaps, my feelings havent changed one bit. But you on the other hand, i have no idea what you think or how you feel. You probably go off and talk to another girl about everything or you jst want to talk to her. You probably dont feel the same way, your moving on slowly.
I dont know what to do.
I still want you.
Maybe thats my problem aye? It's because im like this. Maybe thats why we never lasted. Maybe because its so hard to be with me or even like me and you just got fed up. Maybe its all my fault that we're like this, that were not together. You said maybe we could try again when your finished school, i hate false hope :( because i always believe it. The last time we spoke you said "ill talk to you later" and i really believe that you would talk to me later. Literally, every night i wait. I wait for a call, a message, a hello on msn, a something from you but it's never gna happen is it ? We're never gna talk again are we?
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Now in the mornings, i cant ever seem to look at you anymore or else i'd cry every morning. Now i wait for you to walk passed my homeroom, its not like you would notice but still. I always stare at the screen hoping your name would pop up and say "hello" or "heyz" like you always did before. I miss seeing your caller id everytime you wanted to talk, i miss being called 'baby', i miss being that person you'd sit next to on the bus but now that seats reserved for someone else. i miss everything, i miss you.



Forever - Dc Aka 'The Loverboy'
".. Looking back when we were so young
Walking hand in hand, and thought it would last for so long
But as the seasons changed, things didn't stay the same,
Still I wasn't ready to move on. "